I Heard Death’s Offer and Refused

Offering Hope For Tinnitus Sufferers Like Myself

Michael Centrone

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If you are reading this and are currently at your wits’ end and feeling hopeless about your tinnitus, allow my story to assure you it’s possible to overcome it. I am living proof that this torturous condition can be lived with, and was, at one point, in your current perilous position.

I’m not an otolaryngologist or a psychiatrist. I’m a regular person who wants you to understand that you too can dig yourself out of the deep, dark, noisy abyss to reclaim your life.

For those of you who may not know, tinnitus is commonly described as a ringing in the ears. It also can take the form of hissing, roaring, or buzzing. The ringing can range in pitch and intensity. It can be heard in one ear or both, and can randomly last for a minute, a few days, or, in my case, for life.

Tinnitus is the silence-killer.

As a musician in the heavy metal and hard rock genre for over two decades, it’s obvious to say I’ve been over-exposed to loud noise. I began singing (yelling and growling to be appropriate) in bands when I was a rambunctious twelve-year-old. Nothing provides me more with a sense of purpose, camaraderie, and connection with the universe than music.

Performing live in front of crowds, no matter the size, is my drug of choice. When I take the stage with a band and we proceed to sonically melee with the audience, I feel nothing can touch me, nothing can hurt me; I detox my body of all stress and pressures of life through head-banging beads of sweat. The microphone is my weapon used to liberate myself from oppressive forces, and no one can take this access to freedom from me…

except myself.

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“I literally became afraid of sound.”

Many varying health factors can cause tinnitus. In my specific case, it would occur from noise-induced hearing damage.

When I first noticed it happening to me at roughly fifteen, following concerts and rehearsals, it was jarring. My worry was exacerbated by researching this…

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Michael Centrone

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